When I was single I was obsessed with getting married. I knew God had called me to be a wife and with that I clung to the dream of marriage. But I took his promise and I turned into something a little scary and ugly. Getting married was all I thought about and prayed for. I was constantly on a emotional roller-coaster because of the obsession. One day I would be happy in knowing that one day God would fufill his promise and the next I would be depressed because the promise seemed too far away. I was never stable. Always up and down. Never trusting God even though I said otherwise. I also had a bad habit of making up God's mind up for him. A few times I thought God told me I was supposed to marry a man I was dating or wanted to date. "God showed me he was my husband in prayer" I said a few times. But I failed to really see what God was saying. And what he wanted me to learn from each relationship. Each relationship was meant as a building block to the woman I needing to be to be the woman and wife my now husband needed. I never married any of the entire God told me I going to marry. I feel like so many women in the church do this. We become overcome with the desire to be married that we forget that the men we want may have been called to another woman and the God we serve wants us to see the beauty of the season we are in right then. When we focus on what season we want to be in we don't learn the leasing of the season we are in and that keeps us from the season we are dreaming of. But know that what our worldly mind thinks and wants is nowhere near what God has for you! And you may every well marry a man you feel God has told you will marry,but if you are constantly thinking about it you don't have room in your mind for God.
When met my husband I had no clue he was my promise. And I thank God every day he is,but know that God will reveal his answer to his promise when he is ready and it's time. I spent many years looking one way for the answer and my mom often said to me "you would never know if your husband was right in front of you because you keep looking at the wrong things and your vision is blurry" and she was right when my husband and I compared our life time lines one evening I saw how many times we crossed paths. We were in the same room any times but I was too busy thinking another man was my promise so I missed seeing my real promise and live of my life. Please take this as a friend saying the same thing her mother told her. Trust God's vision for your life clear your eyes take off the blinders and stop looking g and just be. God has so much for you to be but obsessed with a man or something is not one of them. You will miss many beautiful sunsets if you are always looking around for a better view.
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