To be honest....

To be honest, I have times when I doubt God. I doubt that he hears me and has a plan for my life. I wonder why, why did you he give me have a passion for public speaking and I can't even get 10 subscribers on my YouTube. Why did you have Alex go into a police academy to be turned down by 3 police departments. Honestly this is a truly hard time in our lives. We love God, he is our Saviour, King and Father. I'm just wondering if our ears are plugged with our own will and dreams. Is this really a silent time or are we just not hearing.

What is your will Lord??? To be honest I wish I knew!

We pray soo mush as believers for the Lord and his will, but 9 times out of 10 we do what we want and cross our fingers it's what he had in mind anyway. Or we hear his plan/will and get scared out of our minds. To succeed in the plan he has is just too much for our hearts and minds to bear! Iam guilty of both! And not just in the past, but at this very moment in time. I know my call, I know what I need to do. But I'm scared, im sacred of the humans involved in my destiny. When I was 18 I went full force on my dream. The enemy came back at me full force and he used the people and other dreams I had in my life to take me down. I'm not gonna lie because of that time im a little gun shy.

I know I need to over come that and God keeps telling me what he wants me to do.

I was standing in worship one week at my old church, (God has lead me back to this church. So I've been going the past few weekends) and the Lords voice came crashing over me like a wave from a ocean storm. He told me that my dream he had out in my heart would come to pass, but I would need the people in the church. The same people that have made me gun shy to my dream. Im telling you all of this to get to this point, God is talking, he does have a plan for you, he is with you, a door is open. We just have to unplug our human ears, stop, pray, and be still.
Don't give up, just give it. Give it to God and don't look back at it. Trust that moment when he first gave you that fire in your heart for whatever you are wanting and praying for. It will come to pass. I never thought I'd be married. And if I got my way every time I "knew" he was "the one" I would not be married to a man who is better than anything I ever dreamed of! Hold on to his promises! To be honest they are amazing:)