Sharing a a realization and prayer...

This moring when getting ready God showed me how deep my spirit of a victim goes. I held on to the victim card for so long I just acted like one in every area of my life. To the point where it was hurting my relationship with my husband and every other person in my life. How can I be a great wife, friend, or daughter of God if I find my identity is in my spirit of a victim? I have a blessed and happy life. Things are amazing, I have a wonderful job ,i work with kind and compassionate people, my husband is in backgrounds with two police departments, the friends and family we have are amazing! So why hold on to the victim card? No reason is good enough!! Because if we hold on to the victim card we dont open ourselves to the blessings we are intended to receive from God.

So my prayer this morning was:

Lord I no longer want to be a victim. Iam not a victim, iam a survivor! Iam not a victim of my life and the things that happened. Iam strong. Iam strong because my God is mighty! Lord take this spirit of a victim and cast it as far as you can from me. I want your blessings,your love. I want to know you more and love you more. Use me Lord because I love you!

Advice for my single ladies...

This wont be long my loves, this just a bit of info I've learned in my life and I want to pass it on.

Most single Christian women spend too much time dwelling on the dream/prayer for a husband /boyfriend. For example, every time I went to conference I would get all dressed up for those two or three days thinking "maybe I will meet my husband her!" I got things out of all the teachings but I could have gotten more! I missed out on the true meaning of those 3/4 days.

I see soo many women/girls worried about the husband more than God's timing or plan for them. Whole ministries are being developed to train women to be wives or how to wait for a husband. I'm sorry I know hearts are in the right place with wanting to help women of God grow. But focus on God and grow. THE MORE YOU THINK,DREAM,OR DWELL ON THE FACT YOU DONT HAVE A MAN THE MORE YOU WILL MISS OUT ON THE ONLY MAN THAT MATTERS MOST....GOD!! 

Ladies I want you to see that this time of being single is a gift from God and if you take classes and do this and that trying to get away from his gift how is HE suppose to bless you in this time?

Trust me your husband is out there and he needs this time aswell. He needs to grow and develop into the man you want to marry. Just as you need to develop in the woman he wants to spend the rest of his life with. Dont rush, because the best things in life are worth waiting for! You are one of those things!  So enjoy this time, see all God has for you in this time. And please stop by thinking about boys all the time! Lol:)

Oranges...

Imagine a orchard full of Orange trees. The sun is shining and they are all growing. Some make more fruit than others. Some make soo much fruit the tree can barely hold all the oranges. And then imagine a tree in the middle of it all with only one Orange. Should the tree be mad at the sun? Curse it for not giving it much fruit, not enough light? Or should the tree look deeper to find out why its not baring much fruit? How deep do we look at ourselves?

Just some "fruit" for through this morning:)

How am I driving?...

This moring on my way to work I was behind this car that looked like it was in a pin ball machine. Bouncing all around its lane. I make the decision to try and pass the car and when I did, I frist noticed the Christian sticker on her back window then I saw her putting on her mascara. At that moment I thought what a bad example. And as drove on I kept thinking about this woman playing pin ball with her car. The thoughts ranged from I hope she doesnt hurt anyone to im really upset that she would do that,but one thing was clear. I did not want to be near her!

How offten to our actions or words push people away from God? That is my question for us today. Do we keep people from God or do we make them want what we have, which is a relationship with a mighty God. Lets think on this today.

Job and me....

So Job went through it, no one can deny that,The man lost literally everything! His story changes how people see hard times and the perspective they have. And this moring during worship God popped the thought of Job in my mind and when I think of Job I always think of him scraping his sores with broken pottery. It gives me the chills and to be honest grosses me out. Im way too much of a visual thinker so I picture things pretty well in my mind,so that thought can be graffic. But thats not my point. My point is that when God was showing me this and Job he showed me my past and how I wear it like sores and wounds. I have gaint boils,scares, cuts and holes all over my spirit.

I've told my self that I have forgotten and forgiven,but the truth is I hold my past against everyone in it. I walk around pointing at the boil that represents them saying"look what you did to me!" Or "I just wanted to be expected and you hurt me" that wound is deep. But why do I let it stay open and not heal. Why don't I scrap this crud off of me? I have more than ive wanted, a husband and a life that is filled with purpose. The truth is ive let those boils and bruises stay because I thought I deserved them. Ive always felt less than everyone else in the world. I never feel like I fit in anywhere. I was a shy poor kid with a learning disability growing up, then I was the fat tall girl in high school, and as a younger adult I was anorexic and labeled a slut by my own family. Very few people looked at me and really saw who I am. So I forgot who I was and just thought I was all those labels. My boils made me. But today for the first time I took my broken piece of glass and scrapped off all the junk that hurt me. My wounds can now heal! I can see who I really am. And you can do the same!! You were made beautiful, smart, and you are truly amazing. Too amazing to fit in with the rest of the world. Things in your past sucked,but you are better and stronger than those things. Scrap off your boils don't sit in the ashes of the past. Stand up and claim your victory over your life and future! You are a world changer and a champion! Don't let a wound hold you back and make you afraid of success any longer. I know I won't!

If you want to be set free from your boils pray the following prayer and do it out loud so the world can hear the prayer and declaration of a warrior the fights for God's kingdom!

Prayer:
       Lord, I ask you to help me. Help me to heal. Help me no longer see my boils as who iam,but to see what you see when you look at me. I claim victory over my life and the purpose you have for me. And I will fight for your kingdom with my life. I will love you with all I am and do your will. For iam healed by your blood! And I love you Lord. Thank you for this life and the blessings you have and will give me. Amen!