Freedom a prayer....

Dear Lord hear my heart today help my heart today because it is hurting...it hurts because I have recently received freedom and now I see how un free your children are. We keep chains as name tags, placement, belonging, us... when you have come and died so we can be free and know your availability and plan for us. Us as individuals and one body. I hurt seeing people pick up the pain because they don't see themselves as anything else. I see women cling to past relationships for love and belonging. I see men afraid of you because it's weak. This makes me cry because that is not what you died for, you came so we could have life and it in abundance! Chains of doubt and lies are not abundance. God help me be the person you called me to be and not the lies the world try to convince me is me. Help me win people to your kingdom help me love the way you love and help me be a warrior for the freedom of my brothers and sisters in you!

When God fufill our need before our promise

Revelation 3:7
"These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut ,and what he shuts no one can open."

The above verse just shows me that God has a plan and nothing will change that perfect plan for us. And sometimes we don't see what the plan is until 10 years down the road. Well at least that is how it has played out for me. This moring as I was walking with one of my students I thought "I have really done so much mothering this morning." And in that thought God reviewed the 10 years of my career in a flash and the purpose of it. I have worked in a care giving flied for 10 years. I have had my need or hearts desire of being a mother meet. I'm not a mother yet but God has given me the opportunity to love and care for people in such a way as a mother. How cool is that!? God has taken care of my need before the promise because he loves and cares for me!

He has also been teaching me in these 10 years. I have learned so much from clients or students that I feel more equipped for the role of mom. Now the role of mom is still years away but I'm just in awe of how good he is to me, really how good he is to us all! We may not see why the door is shut to a season but the door may be shut because he is still teaching us how to handle things we will come across on the other side of the door. I have cried about not being a mom yet,but I see how God is prepping me for one of the biggest roles, callings of my life. All I can say is thank you for this Lord! Thank you for shutting the door until it's your time for it to be open and thank you for what has been opened to me!